OMG I'm so confused, PLEASE HELP!?

This is kinda long, but here goes.(i'm 12 yrs old btw) I went 2 bible camp, and my friend amanda and i met 2 guys on the bus, sam and terry. Terry liked me, and i thought he was kinda cute, but amanda didn't think so, and i wanted to fit in so of course i pretended like i tought he was ugly. Sam and Amanda liked eachother, but that doesnt have much 2 do w/ this lol. I kinda started obsessing overhim after camp, but i didn't tell any1 that. i told Amanda i didn't like him, and we make fun of him. Amanda told him i didn't like him, and i said i kinda like u, ur cool cause' u dont play quarters (Sam does), but ur a little weird. ( he hacks into computer games and peoples aol accounts lol) He made 2 songs for me over the computer, and i felt soooo bad for saying i didn't like him.we played truth or truth online lol and he asked me if i liked him, and i said no trying to b honest. then he left the chat saying he's gonna get back w/ his ex. i felt so bad i told him i liked him, which is kin